This!!

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same.
I'm through with playing by the rules.
Of someone else's game.
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity

I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits''
cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner try
Defying gravity...

it's not what the world holds for you, it's what you bring to it.

Hard to believe how long it's been, but this is "the" time. Do you ever stop missing & feeling sad at the loss? Unconditional love is a gift to be treasured always. I will, I promise Em.

Don't you ever imagine things differently from what they are?

Imagine, dream, hope.. all the time. Can you turn that imagination, dream, hope into a reality? I suppose you have to be willing to try.. make it happen.

Some things cannot be changed, but others? I totally need to try. A turning point is here.

Tears don't hurt like the ache does.

Resolute finally. Acceptance of something your head knew, but the heart couldn't face. Tears, & then the ache, which I sincerely doubt will ever fully stop..

You set your heart too much on frivolous things and then crash down into despair when you don't get them.

Totally. Chloe Sullivan is *reporter*!!

You just think that you love me.

The first time hearing this, I had no idea to the exact meaning... the context was relative to my beloved inspiration for this blog. Now, complete understanding.. Waiting.. waiting.. & you finally accept the reality. The truth.

My favorite perfume!

That is exactly what he should be!

The sun is shining & it's a "pink" day! Exactly how it should be, & he is as well.

I thought we were kindred spirits..

Intense, pain, tears, finally the truth. Incredibly sad, but trying to focus on anything positive. "pink & green"

Where do I go from here?

My life is a perfect graveyard of buried hopes. That's a sentence I read once and I say it over to comfort myself in these times that try the soul.

You'll have better sense some day, I hope..

So, yeah.. 8 years & the patience is beyond not a virtue. Not that I had lots of it to begin with. (as one of my fav peeps often reminds me.) So when should you give up? walk away? What if you can't? Does hope against all odds qualify as being "patient"??